If there’s one thing that comes easy to every person especially me it’s being resentful. God is teaching me that no one is perfect and that just as He is patient with me as I take baby steps to be as person of His heart, so I have to be to others.
I’ve always been a person who’s always only shown as much love and concern as I felt was genuinely shown to me and the key word being genuine. All the loving words and sweetest talk would mean nothing if I felt it was just a facade.On the other hand for those who I know love me genuinely I’d cherish and love them completely and would spare no comfort for them – well most of the time at least 🙂
I often suprise myself when I find myself doing nice stuff when it’s required. Not because anyone’s looking or because I will get anything but simply because I felt it was required.
I’ve never believed in going out of the way to do something when someone was already working on it. This got me in some trouble personally because I followed the “Do when required” and after I got flak for that, I got rebellious and would try to find excuses even when required because I didn’t want to look like I was trying to score brownie points with anyone.
Now in life when you come across so many people, it’s natural to have those you gelled with and those you didn’t and my relations have often been instinctive. If I disliked someone instantly, time often taught me that I would be right to. If I was indifferent, it went either way.
But now I pray that God helps me to have His love grow in me. I’m sure there were many who criticized Jesus, many who resented Him but He loved them all irrespective of how they felt. I pray that I grow in the same nature of love that does not depend on how likeable/not they are. It’s tough, especially on sites like Facebook sometimes i just want to click “Unfriend”, right now my hands are itching to and so Lord cloud my heart and mind with Your love.
Help me to be more like You and less like me in every way and every day of my life.
I’ve always been a person who’s always only shown as much love and concern as I felt was genuinely shown to me and the key word being genuine. All the loving words and sweetest talk would mean nothing if I felt it was just a facade.On the other hand for those who I know love me genuinely I’d cherish and love them completely and would spare no comfort for them – well most of the time at least 🙂
I often suprise myself when I find myself doing nice stuff when it’s required. Not because anyone’s looking or because I will get anything but simply because I felt it was required.
I’ve never believed in going out of the way to do something when someone was already working on it. This got me in some trouble personally because I followed the “Do when required” and after I got flak for that, I got rebellious and would try to find excuses even when required because I didn’t want to look like I was trying to score brownie points with anyone.
Now in life when you come across so many people, it’s natural to have those you gelled with and those you didn’t and my relations have often been instinctive. If I disliked someone instantly, time often taught me that I would be right to. If I was indifferent, it went either way.
But now I pray that God helps me to have His love grow in me. I’m sure there were many who criticized Jesus, many who resented Him but He loved them all irrespective of how they felt. I pray that I grow in the same nature of love that does not depend on how likeable/not they are. It’s tough, especially on sites like Facebook sometimes i just want to click “Unfriend”, right now my hands are itching to and so Lord cloud my heart and mind with Your love.
Help me to be more like You and less like me in every way and every day of my life.
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