So this is something I’ve struggled with, as I get closer to Him, it’s easy to judge others and think myself better than others but I need to remind myself each time that I have nothing to be proud of. OK so it’s true, I may have bit more spiritual lessons in my mind but that doesn’t mean I’m perfect.. in fact I’m closer to “far from perfect”.I yearn to learn more of the Word, I yearn to draw closer to Him, I yearn to each day grow closer to Him – but above all I yearn that through it all, I never forget that it is He who saved me and never forget that I have to let go of myself and my selfish desires/thoughts before I can serve Him completely and never forget that I was not chosen of my virtues but by His.It’s ironic, as a child growing up, I had my insecurities about my weight gain etc. and over time eventually grew up to respect myself and have pride in myself despite the challenges..And at that time it was so tough to feel good and just “not feel insecure” about how I looked… But now I find as an adult, it’s tough to let go of the same pride… The thoughts of “This is how I am” and “I’m right, they’re not” etc. at some point of time these were my motto’s to get through the day, but of course now sounds plain childish to me now.Pride is something I believe the Lord is intervening and He needs me to let go of it that I may show love to others as He would..
My prayer…
Heavenly Father,
Lord Jesus,
I pray today, O Master
Please cleanse my heart,
of all pride..
all these thoughts that try,
try so hard to convince me that I’m always right..
Please make me humble, Father..
let me never forget the change You’ve brought in me..
let me never forget to be humble..
Please let me be kind and gentle to all..
Grant me the patience and understanding to treat others with love and compassion..
Let Your love shine through in me..
Please Lord, change my heart..
Break my heart for what breaks Yours..
Show me Your vision for our lives and paths..
Let us serve and worship You in truth and in the spirit..
I ask this all,
In the name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!
AMEN!
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An ordinary girl living an ordinary life, living out in the rhythms of grace in God's extraordinary love!
A few years ago I'd have thought that by this age I'd know it all.. but I don't. What I do know is that the grace of God has been a blanket over my life, and I hope that through this blog I can share bits of it with you too..God bless!
P.S: Abigail is my pen name, but it's actually much more to me now - God called me by this name in my heart in my past and He told me that I would be like the biblical Abigail. Then I used to wonder what I could possibly have in common with her. But now, I know.
Of late, God has taught me that I have passed through the past of Abigail, overcome the Nabal. Now I must find the Ruth in me, the one who got beyond every cross of her past, and lived faithfully to a life of God ordained destiny!
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